I haven't been totally honest.
I have some friends that I wish I were closer to.
They have busy lives (pretty sure I do, too).
They have other friends.
They have other priorities.
I ask to hang out. Or do something special. Or go on vacation.
But it's just not quite in the cards.
And if it is, it's under a tight time frame.
But it doesn't feel good to be squeezed in.
I have been afraid to be honest about it.
That it hurts my feelings deeply.
Because I'm afraid if I tell the truth, it'll be too much drama.
I won't be worth keeping around.
And I can promise you this - I don't have a lot of drama in my life.
But I sure have drama in my head.
But the truth is that if I'm holding back so much, I'm not even being myself.
I don't think I'm enough.
And that's just bullsh*t.
How can I expect people to love me when I'm shrinking shrinking shrinking to fit in?
So F-that. I'm dropping that sh*t, too.
But it's still hard.
Also, I got highly sought-after CERTIFIED FRIENDSHIP COACH (Yes, that's an actual thing), Danielle Bayard Jackson on the podcast today.
Answering all of your questions. And asking - WHY IS THERE SO MUCH SHAME to discuss how we really feel about the depth of our friendships.
Do NOT miss this one. It's a doozy:
P.S. If you're in Atlanta, I'm teaching my first dance pop-up in studio! Come dance with me and bring friends (see what I did there?).
P.P.P.S. Wow - the conversations y'all are having with me on this Belonging series tells me I might have hit a nerve. So glad I'm not alone here. <3 Please keep sharing-